I am scheduled to have chemo/radiation appointments the 28th and 29th of this month. This is pending my tumor doesn’t shrink using Cesium Chloride/high alkaline diet. This week I have cheated more on my diet. Had a piece of chocolate cake last night amongst other dietary breaches, through caution to the wind, now mad at myself. What am I thinking, this is serious stuff. So here I am at 4 in the morning eating a bowl of brown rice cereal and a raw whole food green drink(nasty stuff). In the event that my alternative treatment doesn’t work by next Wednesday, I think I’m prepared to start chemo/radiation. I think. I keep saying I’m taking it one day at a time. When it comes down to the dooms day(chemo/radiation) I keep deciding to wait and give the Cesium Chloride a little more time.It has been a little over two months since I’ve started it, and feel like my tumor didn’t get here over night, so it’s going to take awhile to start shrinking. I pray that it starts soon. Family, especially my daughter is getting annoyed at my so called “procrastination” of chemo/radiation. I just feel that it needs time. I feel pretty good most of the time. Sometimes I feel tired, but I think that is not so unusual. I don’t sleep well at night much of the time. Sure don’t want the cancer to spread, but i feel I’m doing the right thing at this point. I pray.