Found out 4 weeks ago PET/CT revealed no signs of tumor. Yeah! Although I’m very glad and thankful,  for some reason, I’m not like ecstatic. I think because once you have cancer, life is never the same. The possibility of it coming back is always in the back of your mind. Having said that however, I am not going to live my life in fear, but trust God that whatever he allows to come my way, he will always give me strength to get through it. He will always bring good out of what Satan means for evil. I’m so thankful and grateful  for his promises. Supposed to go for PET/CT every 3 months now. Sure, just give me more radiation and increase my chances of getting it again. But whats the alternative?  Not sure what I’m gonna do yet? I think I’ll go for the first 3 month one, and then may skip the 6th month visit. I’m learning to take things one day at a time.

Matthew 6 Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his lifeb?“And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

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2nd round of chemo

Week 5. only 7 treatments to go says Radiation Doc. Injected with Mitomycin today and have my pump of 5FU a goin. This will be my last week of chemo if all goes as planned. Wednesday I have my PET/CT scan to check tumor size. I cant wait to get off chemo/radiation and get back to eating my green foods. I am unable to eat/drink my greens/raw foods since taking chemo. It makes me pretty nauseous.  I felt so good before all this. However, I do believe that I started the Cesium Chloride/vegan diet change, if for no other reason than that it gave me a good foundation for what I was about to undertake. The Radiation Oncologist said that the area thats being radiated looks great, much less blistering /redness than expected. Many prayers from what I’ve been told have been lifted up on my behalf as well. The combo is why I am doing so well today I’m sure. I am looking forward to AWANA starting up. Hope I will be able to participate the first few weeks, but have my doubts. We are starting our first year of Grand Prix car racing, my son and his friend have been working on the race track and will be organizing this years Grand Prix activities.

Luke 18:16  But Jesus called them unto him and said, Suffer little children to come unto me, and forbid them not, for of such is the kingdom of heaven.

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Week 2 down

Finished week two of chemo/radiation. Had to go to the hospital a few days ago due to chest pain, back pain, headache for 3 days. Had a Neulasta injection to boost my white blood cell count and could possibly be the cause. They gave me some volume and narcotics which seemed to help. My only sypmeoms today, 2 weeks into treatment is fatigue, itching and pain around treatment site. I tried on some wigs last week and found a couple that I really like and for under $50 each. Havent lost my hair yet, but not getting my hopes too high. Still have another round of chemo in 3 more weeks. Possible it will fall out then if not sooner. Awana starts soon.

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Started chemo/rad

Started chemo/rad this week. today is Friday started chemo on Monday. Started me on Mitomycin and 5FU.  No more chemo for 3 weeks then start same regime again 4th week. Radiation for 5 more weeks, 5 days a week. So far just slight pain from radiation, but chemo makes me feel nauseous and no energy. Nausea not that bad when taking Zofran.  Some say might lose some or all of my hair within 13 days of first chemo treatment. May not lose any, I hope. Still taking vitamins, but not Cesium Chloride. I sometimes wonder if I would have kept taking the Cesium would it have cured it? Just didnt feel I had the time to find out. I have began eating less veggies, just is not appealing to me at all. Eating more fruits, also some more foods I probably shouldn’t like the fries and ice cream cone I had today. But overall I’m still eating healthier than ever. I realized the other day as I was driving to pick up my mom of why God allowed me to get anal cancer. I truly believe that God uses the evil things for his glory. What Satan meant for evil, God will use for good. Perhaps I can reach others with the love of God in Christ Jesus through my mistakes. Thats redeeming love. I love that. Its just like God. He is so good. He saved me while I was yet a sinner, and redeemed me from my sinful nature.

Romans 5:8 But God demonstrates his own love toward us in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.

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change in treatment

Went to Moffitt Cancer Center yesterday. Said tumor had grown. Now have decided to go through chemo/rad. 5 week chemo regime and 6 week radiation. . I’m bummed. So thought the Cesium Chloride was working. I’ve read where if the Cesium Chloride doesn’t work on a certain dosage than it needs to be increased. Not going to do that at this point. Plan on continuing certain vitamins and Badmaev 269 which helps my immune system.  Will continue on my semi vegan diet, but not as strict. For instance I haven’t had a cup of coffee in 3 months and this morning I am having one, organic and caffeine free, however. Not always going to do this frequently, just occasionally. Pretty angry right now. Didn’t want to do chemo radiation. Apparently God has different plans for me. Wants me to learn something from this.I have a feeling that it has something to do with control. I think that with me doing the Cesium, I felt in control. With the chemo/rad I don’t have it. I guess, I’m learning that I’m not in control, he is.

1 Peter 5:7  Cast all your anxiety on him, for he careth for you.

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Alternative cancer therapy

I am scheduled to have chemo/radiation appointments the 28th and 29th of this month. This is pending my tumor doesn’t shrink using Cesium Chloride/high alkaline diet. This week I have cheated more on my diet. Had a piece of chocolate cake last night amongst other dietary breaches, through caution to the wind, now mad at myself. What am I thinking, this is serious stuff. So here I am at 4 in the morning eating a bowl of brown rice cereal and a raw whole food green drink(nasty stuff). In the event that my alternative treatment doesn’t work by next Wednesday, I think I’m prepared to start chemo/radiation. I think. I keep saying I’m taking it one day at a time. When it comes down to the dooms day(chemo/radiation) I keep deciding to wait and give the Cesium Chloride a little more time.It has been a little over two months since I’ve started it, and feel like my tumor didn’t get here over night, so it’s going to take awhile to start shrinking. I pray that it starts soon. Family, especially my daughter is getting annoyed at my so called “procrastination” of chemo/radiation. I just feel that it needs time. I feel pretty good most of the time. Sometimes I feel tired, but I think that is not so unusual. I don’t sleep well at night much of the time.  Sure don’t want the cancer to spread, but i feel I’m doing the right thing at this point. I pray.

Psalm 25:5  Lead me in Your truth and teach me, For You are the God of my salvation ; For You I wait all the day.

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College student

I am the proud parent of a FGCU student. Florida Gulf Coast University look out. Marissa chose her first four years of college here to study pre veterinarian. She has always wanted to be a veterinarian. I have no objections since I am an animal lover, and could use the free vet care for mine. Her desire is to work with small animals. She loves rabbits and mice , thinks they are so cute.

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After researching the subject of anal cancer, I found out that it is most commonly caused by the HPV virus, a sexually transmitted disease. When I discovered this out,  it was pretty shocking.  I have been married to my husband for twenty years, and have been faithful throughout. As far as I know, he was faithful as well. From what I have researched, our immune systems can effectively kill the virus within 2 years in up to 90 % of the cases.  There are also over 40 different strands of the HPV virus some of which can cause cancer of the cervix, vulva, vagina, penis, head, neck and tounge. If indeed my cancer is caused by HPV, from what the statistics show, I must have contracted it many years ago.  Regardless of how or why I got cancer, my goal is to beat it, learn from the experience,  and help others because of it. By the way, after I beat it with Gods help, I’m going to buy myself another horse. Having to recently put my 29 year old gelding down, I think that this is a good, no, a great goal and incentive t0 beating my cancer.

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when our immune systems become compromised

Although I started Cesium Chloride, I still felt that I needed to see a Radiation and Medical Oncologist (chemo doctor) as my back up plan. I needed to find out what their course of treatment would be. I first saw a local radiation oncologist. He suggested 6 weeks of radiation, 5 days a week. The local medical oncologist suggested 4 weeks of chemo. He has apparently treated quite of few patients with anal cancer  that have had very good outcomes. From what I had researched  on the web, the treatments he proposed were very similar. He then ordered a PET/CT to see if there were any metastasis, or spreading of the cancer to other areas of my body. Going to have the PET/CT was very unnerving.

I had never had a PET scan or CT scan before and hated the thought of the radiation and radiopharmaceuticals injected into my body. After all I knew that radiation is cancer causing itself. But I was curious if the cancer had spread and knew that this was the right thing to do. After having the test done and upon returning for the results, I already felt I knew that the results were going to be negative, and they were. Dr B and I continued our discussion about the Cesium Chloride  that I was taking. He feels that this is not going to work. That in his medical career, he has never seen any alternative therapy work. Not even prayer in itself has worked to cure cancer. Prayer with medical intervention, he believes is what truly works. His comment was that even Jesus  spat on the ground to make a healing paste to apply to the eyes of a blind man. My thought was that I know Jesus could have healed without the paste if he had chosen to. I believe that modern medicine is a good thing. However I do not believe that it is the only way to cure disease. I believe that God gives our bodies an immune system, that when given the right conditions, can fight off disease effectively. It is when this system is compromised due to poor diet, prolonged stress, consistent lack of sleep, frequent antibiotic or steroid use, and just plain not taking care of ourselves is when diseases such as cancer are able to gain ground. Being a Christian( someone who has trusted Jesus Christ as her Saviour from the eternal consequences of sin:) I have had to come to terms with the consequences of my sins of the past. Some of which have contributed to my  own compromised immune system  and thus my anal cancer.

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Cesium Chloride

I had worked with JJ for a number of years and during that time I heard much about Cesium Chloride. Apparently his father in law used Cesium Chloride to try and cure his bladder cancer. It worked and he is cancer free to this day as far as know. Another lady that he knew that had bronchial carcinoma was also cured of her cancer. I remember thinking that if I ever got cancer I would try it. However I never thought I would get cancer, but now that I did, I had a decision to make that could have serious negative consequences should this treatment fail. It wasn’t until approximately 3 weeks after finding out that I had cancer that I actually started taking the Cesium Chloride. It took me that long to process everything from finding out I had anal cancer to what were all my treatment options. I did not want the “burn, cut, and poison” course of treatment. However, I do think in some circumstances chemo/radiation is the only option. I just didn’t feel it was” my” only option. I believe that all things work together for good. It is my confidence that God will guide me each step of the way through this battle. My family is greatly concerned over my choice of treatment, and I completely understand.

When I see through their eyes what I’m doing, it does, according to modern medicine, appear to be a foolish choice. But I’m not basing my decision to treat my cancer  on medical science alone, but on my faith in God and following the peace he gives me when I put my trust in him. I have to live my life and make decisions on a day to day, moment by moment basis. Fear tries to consume me and tell me that I should take chemo and radiation, faith and peace  tell me I should proceed with Cesium Chloride. Am I 100 % sure that I’m doing the right thing? Almost. I would be lying if I said yes, but I’m pretty confident that I am going in the right direction. My greatest concern is for my children. What if I am making the wrong decision? What if this doesn’t work and my children and family don’t understand!  I do want to live.

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